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Jesse Parent - “To the Boys Who May One Day Date My Daughter”

"If you break her heart, I will hear it snap with the ear I pressed against her mother’s belly."

From the Coaches Slam at CUPSI 2014. This performance has the longest sustained break for applause we’ve ever seen a poet have to take.




Do You Love Someone With Depression?

If you have a partner or are close to someone who struggles with depression, you may not always know how to show them you love them. One day they may seem fine, and the next they are sad, distant and may push you away. It is important that you know that as a person who is close to them and trusted by them, you can help your friend or partner have shorter, less severe bouts of depression. Mental illness is as real as physical illness (it is physical actually, read more about that here) and your partner needs you as much as they would need to be cared for if they had the flu.

Your relationship may seem one-sided during these times, but by helping your partner through a very difficult and painful affliction, you are strengthening your relationship and their mental health in the long term.

1. Help them keep clutter at bay.

When a person begins spiraling into depression, they may feel like they are slowing down while the world around them speeds up. The mail may end up in stacks, dishes can pile up in the sink, laundry may go undone as the depressed person begins to feel more and more overwhelmed by their daily routine and unable to keep up. By giving your partner some extra help sorting mail, washing dishes or using paper plates and keeping chaos in check in general, you’ll be giving them (and yourself) the gift of a calm  environment. (I’m a fan of the minimalist movement because of this, you can read more about that here.)

2. Fix them a healthy meal.

Your partner may do one of two things when they are in a depressed state. They may eat very little, or they may overeat. In either case, they may find that driving through a fast food restaurant or ordering a pizza online is just easier than fixing a meal. Eating like this, or neglecting to eat will only degrade your partner’s health, causing them to go deeper into their depression. Help your loved one keep their body healthy, and their mind will follow. This is a great article that talks about the “Brain Diet” which can help the symptoms of depression, and this article talks about how our modern diet could contribute to the recent rise in depression. Here is a recipe for a trail mix that is quick to make and has mood-boosting properties.

3.Get them outside.

 The benefits of getting outside for a depressed person are huge. And it is possibly the last thing on earth your partner will want to do. Take them to be somewhere in nature. Pack a picnic and lie in the sun, take a leisurely hike or plant a garden. Being barefoot in the dirt, or “earthing” helps ground the body and reverse the effects of living in a world of emf’s, and digging in soil can actually act as an antidepressant, as a strain of bacterium in soil, Mycobacterium vaccae, triggers the release of seratonin, which in turn elevates mood and decreases anxiety. Sunshine increases Vitamin D production which can help alleviate depression. My friend Elizabeth wrote an excellent post about Vitamin D and its link to depression here.  For more information about other sources of Vitamin D, this is a great post as well as this.

4. Ask them to help you understand what they’re feeling.

If your partner is able to articulate what they are going through, it will help them and you better understand what you are dealing with, and may give insight into a plan of action for helping your partner. Also, feeling alone is common for a depressed person and anything that combats that feeling will help alleviate the severity and length of the depression.

5. Encourage them to focus on self-care.

Depressed people often stop taking care of themselves. Showering, getting haircuts, going to the doctor or dentist, it’s all just too hard, and they don’t deserve to be well taken care of anyway in their minds. This can snowball quickly into greater feelings of worthlessness since “Now I’m such a mess, no one could ever love me”. Help your loved one by being proactive. Tell them “I’m going to do the dishes, why don’t you go enjoy a bubble bath?” can give them the permission they won’t give themselves to do something normal, healthy and self-loving.

6. Hug them.

Studies show that a sincere hug that lasts longer than 20 seconds can release feel-good chemicals in the brain and elevate the mood of the giver and receiver. Depressed people often don’t want to be touched, but a sincere hug with no expectation of anything further can give your partner a lift.

7. Laugh with them.

Telling a silly joke, watching a comedy or seeing a stand up comedian will encourage your partner to laugh in spite of themselves. Laughing releases endorphins and studies show can actually counteract symptoms of depression and anxiety.

8. Reassure them that you can handle their feelings.

Your partner may be feeling worthless, angry and even guilty while they are depressed. They may be afraid that they will end up alone because no one will put up with their episodes forever. Reassure them that you are in the relationship for the long haul and they won’t scare you away because they have an illness.

9. Challenge their destructive thoughts.

A depressed person’s mind can be a never-ending loop of painful, destructive thoughts. “I’m unlovable, I’m a failure, I’m ugly, I’m stupid”. Challenge these untruths with the truth. “You’re not unlovable, I love you. You aren’t a failure, here are all the things you’ve accomplished.”

10.Remind them why you love them.

Look at pictures of happy times you’ve had together. Tell them your favorite things about them. Reminisce about your relationship and all the positive things that have happened, and remind your partner that you love them and they will get through this.

(via The Darling Bakers)

More people need to know this.

This is so incredibly important. I’ve seen people with depression ostracized so many times, and I cannot stress how much it means to each and every person I’ve tried to reach out to after whatever “falling-outs” they’ve had due to depression. Remember to always be compassionate and kind to all friends like this, because you never know what they’re going through.

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Neil Hilborn - “OCD” (Rustbelt 2013)

"She’d lay in bed and watch me turn the lights off and on, off and on… she’d close her eyes and imagine days and nights were passing in front of her."

Finally, finally, a high quality video of this poem.

"…We all have two lives. The second begins when you realize, you only have one…"

Highlights: Conversation with Tom Hiddleston - Nerd HQ (2013) HD (by The Nerd Machine)

Listening to this calms me. Makes me more focused.


dee why beach, sydney, australia. photo anna rigg

I’ve read this somwehere before, I may have forgotten the exact words but the gist was “If your dreams doesn’t scare you, it means that they aren’t big enough!”

I envy those who took the plunge and go against the tide knowing that they are pursuing that one thing, that only thing that makes them feel alive.

And for so long, my forlorn self was stuck. Probably becasue I was scared but then I also realized it was more of  because I do not know what i want. The exact same thing why I haven’t posted anything here. Whenever I try to visit, I just stare at the monitor and say, “what now”? Next thing I know, I just clicked the little x button. Nothing to write, nothing to post, nothing to say. Cause I really do not know.

I really didn’t expect that seeing this image today would push me a bit more. Recently, it’s as if the world is speaking to me, through people, images, recent events and some articles. I’ve also read somwehere (though I may have forgotten the exact words but the gist was) “If your dreams doesn’t scare you, it means that they aren’t big enough!”. Just a few days back, I had some serious reflection + eureka moment. And, this image reflects what I am recently feeling. From not knowing what I want, I am now having a more vivid image of what it is. It is so great that it scares me. So beautiful that now tears pools in my eyes.

I always try to recall the rush, that feeling, that moment I had upon realising what I want. Now as I try to explore more on this newly discovered “calling” , if I sense an obstacle ahead it just diffuses. 

Go! Dive in with your strong little heart Nilika!

(via awkwardsituationist)

I want to have this! 


birthday is still too far though…
let’s peep into the “LIST”
some kitchen stuff still there,
visit to the Optha+glasses
well coveted STUDY table/shelf/ clutter box
living room table?
and some..uhmm…and ahhh..

why so many things listed??
that was quite a LIST..indeed.
oops! don’t forget the white and cork boards, darn!
why do i feel that I need all of this? cause i do.

still MUST have that book this year..VISUALIZING ON!

Though it sounds good to get into my so diverse interests for a more pro-active 2012, i guess it’ll only cause me to spread myself too thin and not accomplish much in the end.Good Point!Indeed, a change for 2012..I’m so used to doing that major mistake..Thanks for that sound advice “A”’It sometimes takes more than few reads and talks, for just this thing to get ingrained in my head..

Though it sounds good to get into my so diverse interests for a more pro-active 2012, i guess it’ll only cause me to spread myself too thin and not accomplish much in the end.

Good Point!
Indeed, a change for 2012..I’m so used to doing that major mistake..

Thanks for that sound advice “A”’
It sometimes takes more than few reads and talks, for just this thing to get ingrained in my head..

On 2012 Wk4..im still unsettled with these year’s theme..
Should I start with the Lunar New Year instead..
so as there’s no so much backlog?

2ne1 UGLY & i am the best SBS Gayo Daejun 2011

Not surprised..TOP …in my 2012!
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